Today I was bored in class (as many a fine story has begun, I’m sure…) and I noticed my friend was doodling the name of her pottery business on her paper and almost making little doodled business cards. I thought, hmm, I bet I can find some fonts in my library that look like that logo bit, so I pulled up photoshop and started fiddling around and I finally designed something for the first time in way too long. It felt good.
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As this does fall in my major I didn’t feel too bad procrastinating by doing it, after all, this applies to the work I’d like to do eventually, do essays…? Not reaaally. So I’m gonna try out designing business cards for her now, I told her I don’t know when I’d get a design done by as schools a thing which as a fellow student she fully understood but eh, I get to design stuff and can play around on the computers at school with Creative Cloud editing systems!
So there, I made something I’m decently pleased with and looking forward to continue working on. Life ain’t half bad.
Birthday in T-3 days… (T3, twenty-three, aha aha… it’s coming too fast, help)
I want to design things.
I keep seeing videos or projects or posters or fonts that make me want to make stuff. I listen to songs that make me want to make things and everything is just beautiful and so well done and I want to be able to do that too, but I can’t.
I hate the learning process. Let me unpack that a bit… I like learning new things, but I like to learn them and be able to be good at them right away. Maybe I like to discover things. Discovering things usually means they’re ready to go, like discovering a talent for something! Learning things means having to not be very good at them at first. It means being able to see something I want to be able to make so perfectly in my minds eye, and not being able to recreate it.
Learning is frustrating, it’s hard, it’s discouraging, it’s frightening. What if what I desire to create is something I will never achieve? What if no matter how hard I work and study and learn, I’ll never develop the ability to truly do to the extent I desire?
This week I feel like I’ve seen so many things that spark that desire to create, but I haven’t created a thing because I’m scared to try and sure I’ll fail. People tell me otherwise and they say I’ll be great, or they say, that’s part of learning! but that doesn’t actually lessen the sting of failure. I’ve built up failure as a monster of a fear in my mind’s eye, I might only be looking at the shadow, failure could be a mouse in front of a candle’s flame, but that shadow on the wall is big and scary and I’m not sure I can face it just yet. I begin to wonder if I’ll ever be ready to face it.
These are some things that I loved the look and sound and feel of lately:
Tessa’s music video for her song “Dream”
Dodie’s song “Sick of Losing Soulmates” (heads up, contains swear words)
Episode 1 of Emily’s webseries “Cold” (everything Emily touches is so beautifully made, her Letters to July series are amazing)
I turn 23 at the end of this week. It sounds too grown up.
I like design. Like today I worked my retail job for eight hours, came home for supper and then went to my second job to design some signage for our new registration table and then set up the table.
Those two hours were the most enjoyable two hours of my day. I designed a vertical version and a horizontal version and then sent pictures to my mum to see what she thought (because I’m filling in for her at her job until she’s fully recovered from surgery so I wanted to make sure she actually liked what I was doing!) and then I saw the old signs we had for something and decided to make new ones of those so I figured out how to design a template so I could make those signs in the right size and it was just really satisfying. I love learning ways to make things. Like the time I designed the watermark I use on my pictures – so fun!
An example of my watermark on one of my pictures from my trip to Romania, March 2014.
I have a love-hate relatioship with choosing fonts though. I hate it while I’m doing it and then I find the one and suddenly its the best part of the project which just goes to show folks, your font can make or break your project. I like to go for classically classy, simple and sophisticated, that kinda thing. There’s a reason I’m in school for Communications and Media ;D
However, when choosing fonts I somehow always find myself singing what is one of, in my opinion, Gunnarolla’s best songs: The Comic Sans song,
So I hope you enjoyed that musical prelude. Talk to ya’ll tomorrow!