Goodbye Life of a Spinster Aunt

I never imagined my wedding as a little girl.

My sister and I had bunkbeds as kids and it wasn’t rare that I’d fall asleep listening to her describe in painstaking detail every minute aspect of her shockingly purple wedding-to-be.

But that’s just it, I fell asleep. I wasn’t into wedding planning as an eight year old, even then I think they may have been some doubt because I don’t think I ever really thought I would get married. I just kind of assumed I’d grow too old and become a cat lady with no cats (cause I’m allergic) and just be a spinster aunt. I wasn’t even really disturbed by this reality, it just seemed like it was bound to be reality, it seemed natural.

I never really got particularly lonely as a child, I liked to read and play alone, and I was a little odd. We all know looking back we were a little odd but some people grow out of that. I don’t think I ever did, in fact I think I grew into it. I just kind of assumed that no one would want to put up with my weird and drama and pickiness and silly and I was okay with that, I didn’t think anyone had to. I’m a rather logical person; it seemed a rather logical conclusion.

And yet here I am, wedding planning. I’m still a little shocked sometimes that Ryan loves me, goodness, even likes me! I don’t even like me very much of the time! But then I wake up to a text, “Good morning beautiful” and I go to sleep to “I love you” and it’s this happy little surprise every time because somewhere inside I feel I can never expect it. I never expect to be loved and am often surprised to find that I’m liked. I am still not very good at being in touch with my emotions but I’m trying and the fact that someone could be so in touch with theirs as to consciously choose to spend some liking me, am I really worth it?

And please don’t think I say this so people can assure me that I am (in fact assurance has yet to have much affect and I’m 23) I simply say it because what I never expected, and assumed would never happen, has, and I picked out “The” white dress today and we’re picking venues and choosing colours and building up our wedding party squad and sometimes it’s like I’m in someone else’s dream because how could it possibly actually be mine? Where are the cats? Where is the spinster life? What is this love and acceptance and friendship and future?

It’s mine.


The Wedding Trip

Last Wednesday my friend Suzanne and I left during the wee hours of the morning (okay we meant to leave in the wee hours but didn’t leave until a normal time of morning…) to start our road trip to Edmonton for our friend Aila’s wedding. I don’t have a drivers license (something I have been saying I mean to rectify since I got my leaners three years ago but don’t actually seemingly plan on doing…) so poor Suzanne was doing ALL the driving. I was being brought along (to quote myself) as entertainment and gas money 😉 Due to the only-having-one-driver thing we weren’t going to go all the way to Edmonton in one go (about a 13 hour drive straight through). So the first day we put our friendship to the test and drove 11 hours to our mid-way destination. Friendship bore through. I think. I hope. Suzanne…?

After staying overnight with some of Suzanne’s family and learning how to play Skip-Bo We drove the last 6 hours to Edmonton where we were going to be staying with some of Suzanne’s friends for the weekend. (Seriously, this girl has connections everywhere!)

Once in Edmonton we went straight to Aila’s house (-to-be?) to meet up with her and drop off some of her things we’d carted over. We stayed and chatted for a while (which was really nice because the rest of the weekend was all prep and set-up so there wasn’t a lot of time to just sit and chat).

Then, then we went to go find the house of the friends of Suzanne.

Now people, we are two nineteen year old girls. We were not using a map, but relying on a GPS and were unaware that in Edmonton, apparently there are sometimes multiple streets with the same name. Being blissfully unaware of this fact we typed in the address of the house we were going to. The GPS directed us “there” but to our dismay, we couldn’t find a house with a house number that matched up… So Suzanne started texting her friend to try and find out what had gone wrong. We found a house down a connecting street with a number that matched up and sat in the car outside like creepers while we tried to figure out what had happened. (It was during this wait that I perfected creepily rising up with your seat from a lying-down position).

Eventually we discovered that GPS had autofilled to Road when it should have been Avenue or something so we were fifteen minutes in the wrong direction. Off we went again. The GPS told us we had arrived. We decided to leave our suitcases in the car when we went to the door (just to make sure it was right, you know).

Yeah, it wasn’t.

Turns out it should have been like, Drive or something, not Avenue… Edmonton, why so many streets with similar names?

Thankfully this time we were literally less than a minute away from the right house (cause that’s not confusing, two streets with practically the same name connecting perpendicularly…)

So we arrived, told our woeful tale, were accordingly (and appropriately) laughed at, and went to bed.

Friday we went to West Edmonton Mall for the late-morning/early afternoon and then went to the camp where the wedding was taking place to set-up the chapel.

The Chapel before the set-up

The Chapel before the set-up

















Aila was so incredibly organized that set-up went amazingly fast! She knew what she wanted to have where and everything was ready and finished to be put straight out, it was great! And once everything was set out it really looked great too!

The Chapel, set and ready

The Chapel, set and ready

















Then was rehearsal. (fairly uneventful) and rehearsal dinner! Got to kind of get to know the groom’s family and friends a bit better (they’re mostly from Edmonton, the Bride’s gang was mostly from Winnipeg) and got to know a couple of the bridesmaids who I had’t known as well a bit better so that was fun!

Saturday was another trip down to West Edmonton Mall, this time with the bridesmaids! Some shopping was done (as is customary in shopping malls) but WEM isn’t just any shopping mall… It’s a shopping mall with a Sea Lion tank and shows, a probably-pretty-close-if-not-actually-full-sized pirate ship in water, a full water park with slides and a wave pool, and, the crowning glory, a full amusement park: Galaxyland.

Now on Friday I took Suzanne on a gander through Galaxyland because we wanted to go on some rides. I know that I love roller coasters and I’ve been to Galaxyland before but Suzanne had never really gone on any big roller coasters, certainly none with loops. My goal was to get her onto the “Mindbender”, the world’s largest indoor triple loop roller coaster and the first roller coaster I ever went on that went upside-down. This was the roller coaster that started me on all roller coasters.

The "Mindbender" roller coaster in West Edmonton Mall's Galaxyland

The “Mindbender” roller coaster in West Edmonton Mall’s Galaxyland












We bought day passes (cheaper then individual tickets) and started slow. The swings. Height, speed, but no feeling of danger. Then a small roller coaster. A mini pull-you-up-and-drop-you (think really mini Tower of Terror without the story aspect). A slightly bigger roller coaster which was a hit! Riding off that adrenaline I got her onto the full-sized Drop ride “Space Shot” (120ft high so not too shabby)

Our on-ride photo from the "Space Shot"

Our on-ride photo from the “Space Shot”















That one wasn’t such a hit. She didn’t hate it, but she certainly didn’t enjoy it much. We did a few smaller coasters and rides to “recover” and then, then it was time to try the “Mindbender”.

I managed to convince, coax, and reason Suzanne onto the ride. As soon as we were strapped in the the car started moving I heard her shout “Becky, what have you done?!” to which I laughed.

Guys, she loved it! Closed her eyes on the loops but hey, I totally do that too sometimes and I have been on quite a few upside down roller coasters. She can now say the first upside down roller coaster she ever went on was the world’s largest indoor triple loop roller coaster. And now, she’s fully ( /overly) prepared for her upcoming trip to Disneyworld!

After the adventure at the amusement park we booked it back to the camp to help set up the reception hall. We got decorations that couldn’t have been made earlier made-up, tables placed out and set, candles organized, the boys strung up the lights, it looked great! It was a very rustic theme. Burlap runner on the tables, baby’s breath flowers as centre pieces, candles everywhere, mini homemade chalkboards as table numbers! I loved it, the little details were wonderful!

The Reception Hall set and ready

The Reception Hall set and ready















The next day, Sunday, was Wedding day!

The friend Suzanne and I were staying with is really good at hairstyling and nails and stuff so she graciously offered to do our hair and nails for us in the morning before the wedding which was fun! Then we raced off to the camp!

Suzanne was doing guestbook stuff and I was lighting all the candles before the wedding and then the reception (we arrived a bit later than we’d hoped so one of the bride’s younger brothers had already started on some of the candles) but soon we were ready and then WEDDING!

It was a lovely wedding, Aila looked gorgeous in her dress! They had each written their own vows which were so sweet and you could just tell that everyone was so happy about the wedding. it was just so right =)

The new Mr and Mrs

The new Mr and Mrs

Then was the reception where none of the speeches went too long or were boring and few overly embarrassing stories were told. There was a meal, a dance, and then the new couple was sent away through a tunnel of sparklers.

First dance

First dance



















It was a wonderful wedding, Josh and Aila, I wish you two all the best. May God bless you richly in your life together!


Monday, Suzanne and I packed up the car again and were off. We went through Calgary to go to the Zoo. It was damaged in the floods this year so it was only partially open but it was still fun and we got to see quite a few of the animals out and about.

Tuesday was another 11 hour driving day to which I think our friendship stood the test (Suzanne?) and then we were home. Aila was married. Holidays were over. Back to the grindstone.

It was a great trip. Suzanne, thanks for putting up with me and not kicking me out of the car on the side of the highway somewhere. Aila, thanks for inviting me to your wedding and letting me help out with set up and stuff. It was really nice to be able to get involved. Suzanne’s family and friends, thanks for letting me stay in your houses even when I didn’t know your card games or was allergic to your cat. Good week, would do again.


Vidcon 2013: Aug 3-5

Vidcon, it was a week ago today I left…

So yesterday we covered Thursday and Friday and today will be Saturday, Sunday and Monday.

Saturday: Woke up bright and early to be ready for mainstage at 9. Yes it was bright and early, it was like 8 or some other ungodly hour… (PS, I’m not a “morning bird”, can you tell?) Rhett and Link were hosting and we got to see people like Paint, The Hillywood Show, Meekakitty (Tessa), and Hank Green perform live.

After the mainstage was done for the morning, I had an empty slot of time because there was nothing I wanted to go to right then so I went and bought a couple posters and went and stood in the group-of-people-standing-in-a-formation-that-looked-similar-to-a-line-but-wasn’t-because-you-can’t-line-up-until-half-an-hour-before-the-start-of-the-signing. 45 minutes before the start they realized we weren’t going away, gave up and let us make a proper line in the queue. (sidenote, why the heck does the word queue have two “ue” ‘s. Was that really necessary English language?) About ten after twelve the cast appeared and there was great celebration in the line except that most of us couldn’t see them at all because they were sitting up front and the line was standing people and some of us are below average height *coughcough* but eventually I got to the front of the line and then I went into freakout mode where my body kicks into flight setting and my mind immediately begins to rationalize why and how I could escape this situation, however I stood my ground and eventually met the cast. I didn’t say much, Ashley liked my Dr Who shirt, Daniel said he was finding Vidcon a bit overwhelming (but really fun) too, I managed to tell Laura I loved her portrayal of Jane, Wes and Julia were very kind, Max noticed my “I ❤ Darcy” pin and asked where my Mr Collins pin was. I told him I was from Winnipeg (Which, for those who don’t know, is where, in the show, Mr Collins’ finance lives). He was really excited about that and said we should chat and I should tweet him later (which I did. We talked about Disneyland), Allison wanted to know was I really from Winnipeg because “That’s so cool!”, and Craig was just generally a cool guy! So now I have this, and it makes me really happy partially because its the cast of my favourite web-series and partially because it’s physical proof that I didn’t let myself run away from a situation that intimidated me:















After that I had another empty spot so I went got some food (I’d realized how little I had eaten over the con and that made me sad so I got PIZZZZA) and then I went to go meet Kira. Kira subscribed to my channel during the original “Girls on Youtube” debacle when I made a video response and I subscribed back so we’re like BESTS FWENDS!!! So I got to meet her and that was super fun! and then I went to meet up with Carissa and Euan, two people who I was in a collab channel with a few other nerdfighters for a while (ChronicWhimsy) and while our collab is done now, it was super fun to get to meet up with them!!










We drifted through the Expo hall and bought ice cream (priorities) and I bought earrings from Lauren Fairweather (who recognized me and gave me a hug and squeee I love Lauren!) Carissa then went to meet up with a friend and Euan and I stayed for the mainstage performances which I quite enjoyed! We got to see Hank and John, Ze Frank, Wheezywaiter and more. Ze Frank’s talk was just so great, I love Ze Frank. I think I managed to record the whole thing, so that may go up on my youtube channel at some point because, well, Ze Frank.

After mainstage I went back to the hotel room and some people were over hanging out (I think it was Blake, Ryan, and Jeff…? They seemed to be the most frequent visitors ;D) and then we ran downstairs to see Tessa play live outside and she did SOOOO GOOD! I love all the music and when her CD comes out, I will totes be buying it!










Then VIDCON PROM!! So apparently it’s a thing on the last day to have get all dress up and have an EPIC dance party til like 1:30 in the morning soooo yeah, that happened. We took a couple group shots (stolen from Tara’s facebook) and then went to go partay!!

Clearly out of focus because, all together, we are too good looking to look at.

Prom was so much fun. Being a private-school kid I’ve never really done anything like that. At my high school grad party there was some dancing but the sheer number of people at Vidcon gave it such a different dynamic. I’ve never been to a club or a bar, I can’t dance (unless you want to see some out of practice ballet) and I just never really enjoyed it. Well this time, I enjoyed it!

We stayed up oober late chatting afterwards and the next day was DIDNEY!

I’d never gone to anyplace connected to Disney before so I was like a kid in a candy shop. I love roller coasters so that was good because Disney has some really good ones! We didn’t get to meet any of the “face” characters in the park but we saw the parade so I got to see some princesses at least. Celine and Emily both needed wheelchair to get around the park so we all took turn pushing them through lines and up exit ramps. We all got a good workout to make up for any junk food or lack of exercise the rest of the weekend! It was really fun though, I’m glad the girls were able to come.

That evening we stayed up late chatting and packing again. Everyone was putting off their packing but the next day eventually came around and it was time to leave.

Allyson and I were on the same shuttle to the airport so we said goodbye to everyone at 8:30 in the morning and went to head back home. It’s very depressing after a weekend of friends to have to go back to the humdrum routine of life. It’s like everything after Vidcon is tainted with disappointment, it just can’t compare to how much fun the weekend has been.

Made it through customs etc. Got my boarding passes, lost one, had to get it reprinted, made it to Edmonton, forgot full water bottle in backpack through customs and got slightly reprimanded and then was home. As I stepped out of the plane into the Winnipeg airport, that was the first moment when I felt like I could cry. There was no more chance that some freak accident would happen and I could stay with my friends, there was no more concerts, or dances, or disney, there was nothing left from the weekend except what remained in my head, which, as you can see, has quickly faded.

I’ve come to the realization that if it was just the convention, I wouldn’t go back. While it was good fun and nice to see people, that of itself isn’t worth the money or the time it took. What made it worth it were the friends I had but got to “meet”, the new people I met, the fun I had with these friends. It wasn’t fun because we were at a convention and could see our friends too, we were at the convention because our friends were there, and that is why I will go back next year.

So, until next year Vidcon, it’s been fun.












Amy’s High School Grad

As I’ve mentioned frequently recently, my sister Amy graduated high school yesterday. I convinced her to let me follow her around all day and take videos and pictures of her and her friends at the Convocation ceremony, while getting-ready, and at the grad banquet under the main cover of having pictures/video to show our grandparents in BC who couldn’t make it out. Mainly I wanted to try taking pictures for a big event without the pressure of being “official”. Here are some of my favourites from the day:
(all these pictures were taken with a Canon T3i using the lens it came with… for those who care.)

Watching their futures grow closer.

Waiting as their futures grow closer.

Waving as they find their parents like Kindergarten students in a school choir for the first time.

Waving as they find their parents, like Kindergarten students in a school choir for the first time.

A happy moment with a little cousin who came to see her graduate.

A happy moment, with a little cousin who came to see her graduate.

A friend getting her hair curled for the evening Graduation Banquet.

A friend getting her hair curled for the evening Graduation Banquet.

Amy getting her hair styled for the evening Graduation Banquet.

Amy getting her hair styled for the evening Graduation Banquet.

Some finishing touches on the curls.

Some finishing touches on the curls.

A friend's hair. Styled with fresh flowers.

A friend’s hair. Styled with fresh flowers.

Preparation for the evening Graduation Banquet.

A friend preparing for the evening Graduation Banquet.


Lacing the corset of Amy’s graduation gown.

Amy's corsage, brought by her date.

Amy’s corsage, brought by her date.

Full-dress shot outside the Banquet venue.

Full-dress shot outside the Banquet venue.











































































I had a really great time, loved talking pictures with the girls who came over! It was nice to share their day like that and to be able to help preserve it in their memories! There were loads more pictures but these ones are my favourites so I thought I’d share them. Congrats to Amy and her fellow graduates, have a great next year!

Talk to you tomorrow!!

Allowing Change

Today I had a whole day planned, and when I get something planned, either it happens according to plan or I procrastinate all day and it doesn’t get done. But those are the only two options, plans don’t just get changed last minute, I need time to mentally prepare for things.

So today my plan was to film a couple videos, paint my nails, watch some Gilmore Girls or something, and then go see Star Trek II (again) with my friend Mandy. Only one of those things happened because I’m working on being a bit more flexible. As I mentioned a few days ago my mum and I have been looking for dresses to wear to my sister’s graduation in two weeks. We have been having a very difficult time finding anything that suits our tastes but my Grandma suggested a boutique that is closing and therefore had some great sales on so mum was planning to go by there at some point.

Today after I’d leisurely eaten my breakfast I was heading to the couch to hunker down and watch some tv (procrastinating day plans) when my mum said, If you want to come with me you’re going to have to be ready soon because as soon as dad gets here with the car I’m going. I was kinda all huh? because I didn’t know where she was planning on going (shooooopping). Once it was explained I decided I couldn’t go because I had to meet Mandy at a certain time because we were going to the movie. Mostly I didn’t want to give up my plans, my “me time” but I started leisurely getting ready for the day anyway. When I was nearly finished I realised mum was still there so I decided, I can change my plans, I can do this. I won’t die if nothing happens and it’s okay if I’m a little late meeting Mandy, we’ll still be waaay early for the movie.

So I did it. I didn’t follow my plans and I didn’t procrastinate, I was SPONTANEOUS and I went dress shopping. Not only did we find mum a dress, but I found a dress! So now everyone’s ready for Amy’s grad! And later today Amy found a dress somewhere else for another event she needed one for! EVERYONE’S GOT DRESSES!!!




















Oh, and Star Trek II was just as good the second time round!

Talk to you tomorrow!

For Chocolate and Leggings

This morning, my day off, I was awoken from a deep and dreamless sleep at the God-forsaken hour of eleven in the morning by my mother. She informed me that if I still expressed a desire to go shopping with her (a desire that had been expressed over a week prior) I would have to get up and shower and put on my face and be ready very soon or immediately. Preferably immediately. Keep in mind, there was no warning, no planning that went into this. It appeared to simply strike her fancy that one must seize the day and wake the sleeping lion.

So I growled a bit, rolled out of bed (nearly literally) and went and sat on the stairs in my pjs petting the dog for about ten minutes while informing my mother I couldn’t be ready faster than an hour. She groaned and moaned and hmmed and hahed and told me to go get ready then!

So I got ready and off we went to the shops. First we went to the library and I got out some Maureen Johnson books which I look forward to reading and then we continued across the city to THE MALL. Our reason for journeying to THE MALL was to find a dress for my mum to wear to my sister’s high school graduation in two weeks. It was an unsuccessful journey. My mum tried on a grand total of three dresses out of ALLLLLL the stores in THE MALL. I mean, honestly, I tried on five and we weren’t even shopping for me! She is very picky, too short, too long, too thin, weird material (legit excuse she used!), weird pattern (have to agree on that point though. Some of those dresses…), weird colour, weird cut, too mehh…

So we gave up hope, sampled some chocolate at chocolate shops, bought some danishes and went home.

That may sound incredibly boring, but it wasn’t, it was really fun. See we like to judge dresses on their mockability and some dresses this year are purdy darn mockable let me tell you! And I think part of the reason I like the tv show Gilmore Girls so much is the rapport between Lorelai and Rory is fairly similar to my mum and me when we’re on a roll (my mum is not nearly so giddy or silly as Lorelai, I’d probably be the Lorelai but you get the idea).

We have a blast shopping! And I don’t even enjoy shopping as a rule! I like to get in and out as quick as possible unless I’m reaaaaaaally bored.

So ya. Spent the day shopping today and all I get was two chocolate samples and a pair of leggings (if only that Forever XXI dress had been in my size…!)

Talk to you tomorrow!