Goodbye Life of a Spinster Aunt

I never imagined my wedding as a little girl.

My sister and I had bunkbeds as kids and it wasn’t rare that I’d fall asleep listening to her describe in painstaking detail every minute aspect of her shockingly purple wedding-to-be.

But that’s just it, I fell asleep. I wasn’t into wedding planning as an eight year old, even then I think they may have been some doubt because I don’t think I ever really thought I would get married. I just kind of assumed I’d grow too old and become a cat lady with no cats (cause I’m allergic) and just be a spinster aunt. I wasn’t even really disturbed by this reality, it just seemed like it was bound to be reality, it seemed natural.

I never really got particularly lonely as a child, I liked to read and play alone, and I was a little odd. We all know looking back we were a little odd but some people grow out of that. I don’t think I ever did, in fact I think I grew into it. I just kind of assumed that no one would want to put up with my weird and drama and pickiness and silly and I was okay with that, I didn’t think anyone had to. I’m a rather logical person; it seemed a rather logical conclusion.

And yet here I am, wedding planning. I’m still a little shocked sometimes that Ryan loves me, goodness, even likes me! I don’t even like me very much of the time! But then I wake up to a text, “Good morning beautiful” and I go to sleep to “I love you” and it’s this happy little surprise every time because somewhere inside I feel I can never expect it. I never expect to be loved and am often surprised to find that I’m liked. I am still not very good at being in touch with my emotions but I’m trying and the fact that someone could be so in touch with theirs as to consciously choose to spend some liking me, am I really worth it?

And please don’t think I say this so people can assure me that I am (in fact assurance has yet to have much affect and I’m 23) I simply say it because what I never expected, and assumed would never happen, has, and I picked out “The” white dress today and we’re picking venues and choosing colours and building up our wedding party squad and sometimes it’s like I’m in someone else’s dream because how could it possibly actually be mine? Where are the cats? Where is the spinster life? What is this love and acceptance and friendship and future?

It’s mine.

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ENGAGED!!

Well the title sorta gave it away huh? Guess I coulda come up with a more vague one… Nah, big news can be abrupt!

Ryan and I are engaaaaaaged!

I thought maybe it might be fun to put up some blog posts now and then through the wedding planning process that has now arisen! But before that I should prooooooobably share the engagement story! (*Spoiler alert, it’s super cute)

So Ryan and I had a hike planned in the Whiteshell Provincial Park for Saturday March 11. The park is about an hour and a half away but we like to go out there when we can to do some hikes and had been trying to get a winter hike in since like January, but I don’t get many Saturdays off work. We’d also just gone two weeks ago to hike around a different area, so heading out there didn’t seem suspicious to me at the time!

We’d planned ahead where we wanted to go hike because it’s a large park and I later discovered that last Sunday Ryan had secretly gone out with his dad (never hike alone kids!) to scope the area out and pick his spot! So on Saturday we’re driving through the park and we pass a sign for one of the lakes and Ryan says, “Oh I think McGillivray Falls is just after this lake, can you keep an eye out for the sign?” (sneaky sneaky sir, you were there less then a week ago…) so we spot the area and go to turn in. Well the parking lot isn’t plowed and in a Manitoba winter if the parking lot isn’t plowed you’re not parking in the parking lot so Ryan’s going, do you think it’s fine to park on the shoulder here? Should we drive down and see if there’s somewhere to park? and I’m like, nah, shoulder is fine, we’re out of the way, it’s not busy, we goooood (He’d parked in the exact same place less than a week ago, sneaky sneaaaaky…)

So we kind of casually make our way through the hike, up alongside the frozen waterfall and Ryan is somehow subliminally directing me to his spot (I had no idea he was guiding me there haha I thought I was choosing our turns!!). So we arrive at this very pretty vantage point where you have a view out over the lake and can see the frozen falls down to the side and the trees lining the banks and it’s all pretty and snowy and everything and Ryan (who was standing behind me) says, “Look, someone’s initials are carved in this tree!”

I turned and looked and sure enough RW and BW are carved very clearly into the side of the tree we’re beside. So I was like, aww cute! (And in my head am thinking those could be ouuurrrr initials one day!  What a funny coincidence! Yes, I can take a while for things to click) But I didn’t say aloud that they would be our initials because I didn’t want to seem presumptuous, I mean, I’m a lady! Ryan says, “Like Ryan Watson and Becca Watson…” and something in his face or his voice checked me and it suddenly clicked what was happening and then he started getting down on one knee and then he propooosedddd to meeeeeeee!

And, of course, I said yes!

So there we are, our planned adventure for the day became an adventure for a lifetime!

 

Mayday, Carpool Down!

I commute to school. Now commuting has benefits, I get to have a forty minutes adjustments period to allow my mind to slowly realize it’s awake and needing to function before actually being in class. I can study in the car. I can socialize with my friends. However, there are some downfalls when it comes to carpooling. If the driver is down, chances are the carpool is too, and if you don’t go to school in the same city, other modes of transport aren’t really an option.

Carpoolers rely as much on each other as they do on their vehicles. By saving the environment one less car at a time, they strengthen their bond of trust that they have each others’ backs, that they’ll get to school on time for their classes.

Turns out I have an unplanned day off tomorrow. Good thing I already brought home my textbooks to study for my midterm on Friday.

SUCCESS

It went well!!! We sold almost all of the popcorns (all the flavoured ones sold out, we had maybe a dozen originals left, maybe) and God provided more than we were expecting or praying for!It was fun, people loved the idea and seemed to like the popcorn!! I think it was worth the time it took!

Our popcorn stand in the foyer!

Our popcorn stand in the foyer!

For this coming week, its the week of prayer and fasting at church so I will be fasting from social media/media stuffs this week so this blog (amidst all my other social networking sites) will not be updated until Saturday.
I’ve not deserted you, I’m just taking a break so I can concentrate on, well, more important things ;D

Have a good week! Talk to you on Saturday!
-B

ALL THE POPCORNS!!!

Today was popcorn making day. Like seriously, hardcore popcorn making day. We arrived at the building at 1pm and we were there making popcorn by 10pm. Nine hours, nine hours of popcorn making…

It was fun though, it was us interns and one other young adult who is coming on our trip with us- have I mentioned the trip yet? As part of the internship I’m in we go on a mission trip and we’re going to Romania! We’ll be gone for the month of March and we’ll be working with a missionary couple from our church who live out there working in churches and preaching and helping family – supplying firewood, food, prayer, etc… We also are hopefully taking two weekend outreaches to Moldova to work in an orphanage/rescue program there, and to Turkey. Sooooo we’re kicking off our fundraising this week with a popcorn fundraiser, making popcorn (original, cheddar, salt and vinegar, cinnamon sugar, and sweet), and selling it in premade bags. We made the original in a popcron machine which was nice and easy (still time consuming though) but the other flavour we made in pots and hand tossed with flavours. Then we had to let the cool and bag and label them. Nine hours…

Writing out labels for the popcorns

Writing out labels for the popcorns

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It was really fun though, and we were all very sick of popcorn by the end of it! We made 200 medium-large bags to sell tomorrow. Praying it goes well!!
-B

Planning

Homiletics this morning, choir practice this evening… We did fundraiser planning for Sunday this afternoon though. Got most of our popcorn fundraiser organized, hoping it’ll go well on Sunday!
-B

Roadtripping (again) and Youtube

My roommate and I have gotten to the point where we’re sitting side by side showing each other funny youtube videos one after the other…

By the way, I’m heading on a roadtrip tomorrow til Sunday evening and I don’t know *slash* doubt that I’ll have internet so I may be posting things when I get back down to Winnipeg.

I’m travelling with the internship that I’m doing. We’re heading to a church out of town that we’re connected to and we’ll be doing outreaches/children’s ministry up there. It’s gonna be fun =)

Anywho, see you when I see you!!
-B